Found this really Deep

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.
Much of your pain is self-chosen.
It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self.
Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility - Kahlil Gibran

Kahlil Gibran is definately one of favourite philosophers from now on 
1. He's not very famous
2. His middle name is similar to mine haha

So I'm in a little bit of a Overthinking Overdose...because I cannot understand the mentality of som1...but oddly enough I cant separate myself from this person (I will not use gender...so u guyz wont get it)...but yea itz gettin on my nerves now but w/e...2morrow iz a new day..

Good Newz!!! Kaniel has now become even closer to his emotionless state...how des this make me feel?...Umm it doesnt  (get it?)...so yea...2morrow will be a very interesting day and I cant wait to see the turn of events (and no I'm not talking about what you think I'm talking about you instigators) But for real though...I deadass just woke up one morning and said that to myself that emotions are the reasonz for my tears and monotonous sad feelingz...so what didi do? I researched on how to live without them and observe people who in my opinion didn't have emotions as well...and my conclusion from this? Apathy...basically the lack of interst or concern...so yea thats what I am...Apathetic...

Julia!! I am soo very proud of you luv..I would show emotion for you...you deserve so much from me...just dont upset me (inserts heart smileys)

but with all this...it does feel good to be loved though...or even though with my mentality I hardly believe when people say "I love you"...I'm an action kinda guy so wordz, especially not said out of your mouth are jus blahhs to me...and to 'show AND! tell' iz even better...but not many people in the world know how to 'love' so I shouldve started this paragraph with "it does feel good to be (favored) though" see how that works?? yeaa thought you would've...

Sleeping with headfones over my ears...
~Kaniel~
~1~

PS- again I am not sad...just in a overthinking surplus
but i am my own physician so I'll fix myself...right Kahlil?